Morabaraba: for four or more

Blog: 1st November 2015
 
Greetings: illustrious readers.
 

This has been a most amazing fortnight in the “Rainbow’ Territory of Mzansi. To begin with: in scenes not seen since ’76 a mass student ‘uprising’ occurred. One suspects it was triggered by some successes earlier this year; when they [the students] were aimed at a rather more complicated vision in what is called a “Transformation Agenda”. On that round rage was directed at inanimate statues of eradicating statues and other historical memorabilia, mostly targeted at a long dead Koloniste alien who played a huge part in eradicating the traditional lifestyle of those who were recently liberated. And it proved to be successful. The changing of the past is well underway. The strategy was however not fully understood nor particularly widely approved of.
 
The tourism industry for instance had some muttering about the loss of storytelling opportunities, which were ignored with the “Contempt they deserved” according to the loudly demanding change agents.
 
The “Fees must fall” campaign however resonated in a way few campaigns have recently. The idea that access to education should be freely available to all persons is deeply ingrained in the fabric of the struggle and access to the [apparently] “better” universities has become almost impossible for many who do qualify but have no access to funding. The national funding agency having long since, ‘lost all the money’.
 
It is difficult for radical proponents of leftward [best intentioned] political agendas to understand the linkages of capital expenditure: that make it problematic to create free products that are not produced by robotic machines. The idea is to get ‘Free/Quality’ education: a seriously misunderstood oxymoron.
 
The entire movement is especially ironic given the explosion in access to free information over the past two decades in the form of Search Engine availability. As I have pointed out in other blogs: today’s ‘learner’ sits in a classroom with INSTANT access through a pocket held machine to trillions of pages of random data… on any subject namable. No other generation in recorded history has ever this level of access on such a totally democratised scale.
 
In this regard the ruling party’s multi-pronged strategy to provide free WiFi access across the region I call Zone One, specifically the two major urban centres that between them house about a 6th of the national population, is slowly under way… as is a project to make all state school paperless within this century… or more hopefully, the first part of it.
 
In the meantime an allegedly dysfunctional Secondary Ed’ sector is resolutely annually dumping hundreds of thousands of High school graduates who in one way of another qualify for Tertiary Ed at either a Bachelor’s, Diploma or Certificated level: and in a burst of revolutionary fervour a decision was taken sometime to kill all those Public Educational sectors that served the Diploma and Certificated market need and combine them into Universities because everyone [having been liberated] should go to university…
 
So for instance this bloggist and his spouse routinely have their older ‘out of warranty’ vehicles repaired and even completely rebuilt by their informal mechanic who operates out of the slowly ruining remnants of an engineering workshop in a broadly deserted former technical college in the next neighbourhood to the one in which we live.
 
So now we have hundreds of thousands of university students doing a range of hugely more complex courses than they need to be employabe and virtually no people doing training for the hundreds of thousands of jobs that are going begging in a huge rang of stereotypical occupations like electric wiring, motor electronics, food delivery, basic bookkeeping and accountancy Plumbing and: and: and.
 
And since in the normal nature of things most of this logic is lost on most of the young especially those from unsophisticated backgrounds there has simply been a rise in the level of general disappointment with the fruits of liberation and a demand for more.
 
Thus the movement to liberate the poor and disadvantaged from their marginalised role at the margins of the margins gained shock momentum this pre exam period, when the [so-called] ‘historically advantaged’ cluster of universities suddenly, seemingly erupted out of no where into a FEES REVOLT. And won. Well round one to activists.
 
As a bloggist I was puzzled that only one [so-called] ‘historically disadvantaged’ university seemed to be involved in the unrest: i.e. Fort Hare … [apparently] one of the country’s most famous universities in the field of supplying the Kontinent with political leaders.
 
Now it seems, from otherwise unverified phone-in’s to radio stations; and social media comment, in the general chatter that has accompanied the exlosion, that the State [through Police action] has been violently suppressing student unrest in many of those less urban accessible institutions in out of context rural locations beyond what I call “The Dome”. And, so it would seem, it has been almost a strategic requirement: that the [so-called] ‘middle-class’ range of institutions join in an increasingly loaded and all too routinely ignored state of reality.
 
The issue is should people pay for education at, especially, higher levels. Yes or No.
 
Broadly it is A qualified YES [i.e. Alternatively, No] i.e. some people should be free and [so-called] “rich people” should pay, and in fact pay more to support those that can’t pay. This means boring work for bureaucrats, evaluating whether you are poor enough to qualify for free fees. [Albeit this task could perhaps be delegated to robots at lower cost.] Of course if everyone was free then this requirement would not be needed.
 
Still Access is the issue and the system is unable to cope with the demand. In that regard the “system” has certainly been caught napping. The massive numbers of bachelor pass matriculants rising inexorably year after year and notwithstanding waffle over pass rates et al, means that there is hugely more demand for Tertiary Ed than anyone planned for. And if my local tech to which I referred earlier is any indicator [and I understand it to be] then we have lost considerable capacity at exactly the moment it became more urgent to have it.
 
I’m sure there’s a saying somewhere about being careful what you wish for because it could take you by surprise when you get it.
 
The great problem with the desire to make everything free though, eventually comes down to the late Mrs. Thatcher’s classic comment on the Achilles heel of all well-intentioned socialist fantasies: “Eventually you run out of other people’s money.” I don’t think we have quite reached that point yet notwithstanding alleged leakage on a scale not seen possibly since the Norman Invasion of Britain in 1066.
 
Nonetheless the question of how the Uni’s bridge the gap is paramount.
 
Most Universities needed a 10.5% increase to maintain the existing system and there is a great official silence from the Ruling authority regarding how the gap will be breached. Less informed persons are enraged that the Uni’s want “Twice the inflation rate” and “how dare they?” “Rotten exploiters”, they punt. No one actually asks why 10.5%? …Was it a negotiating starting place, or what?
 
And I make no claim to know. I do suspect that differential inflation rates are playing a role, as is the fact that some of our trading partners are operating on [in some cases] historically unprecedented, negative interest rates, while we operate on interest rate gaps that could be as wide as 800% higher than theirs, not to mention that our economy is operating on SloMo; and therefore the tax revenue base is shrinking rapidly at its margins. [See my previous comments on Negative interest rates in Europe versus 8 plus % age money in Mzansi]
 
Also there seems to be a huge backlog of non-development catching up with the State authority structure that almost seems as absent as it was at the height of the HIV no anti retroviral era.
 
According to some Internet accounts there are as many [or maybe more than] 700 [so-called] S.O.E.’s [State Owned Enterprises] operating in some or other way in the economy. The more noticeable ones are all looping around in an abyss of rising costs versus stagnant income and underperformance, and many, such as the Post Office, the Electricity monopoly ESKOM, and the national Airline are being routinely bailed out of financial trouble. A key discussion point this week on social media concerned the fact that the Post office… a branch of government was unable to pay the wages of its staff this past month, and cannot guarantee full payment this month. Each one is looking for a bail-out. One suspects that if we had an entire duplicate One Trillion budget it would not fill all the holes that have leaked apart with reckless abandon while too many were partying on the spoils of victory.
 
Pointedly, key persons are hoping to distract attention from these crises of performance by arguing that the universities freedom to operate should be curtailed, and they should be subject to state control of their finances. This is an idea that has been usefully used elsewhere on the Kontinent to eradicate the possibility of producing too many ‘Clevers’, who will, as is presently occurring in Mzansi [according to some of the more Kontrarian Social media], bite the hand that rescued them from the misery of being ‘Kolonized’ by ‘Aliens’. Additionally as a bold distraction the “invading influence” [characterized by ‘Aliens’] is to be eradicated as part of policy. No one is too sure about what that means.
 
This point was made in no veiled manner by the current leader of the [so-called] EFF political grouping who usurped the limelight after the president pricked the demonstration’s power by agreeing to drop the fees increase idea. He launched a co-optive campaign dragging some forty thousand red shirted acolytes all around the city. He invaded the Reserve Bank and delivered a memo of demands; as he did at the Co operatively named Chamber of Mines headquarters. He then arrived at the base for the “Evil Capitalists” the JSE [local Stock market}
 
Here he stormed and railed at the building [in which, ironically most of the work is done with computers and algorhythms], presenting a stereotypical, albeit superbly barnstormed, standard, kolektion of wonderfully promissory demands… like: for instance: that all publically listed [JSE] Stock Exchange businesses should [almost] immediately give all their worker 51% of the stock… And huge salary increases to the lowest paid, and they must adopt entire kolleges to which vast sums must be given from their ‘ill gotten’ profits [Which it seems are inherently the illegitimately appropriated property of the workers.]. The actual owners deserve only to be permitted to donate their wealth to the People [who have been treated with appalling rudeness]. Plus they must adopt hordes of learners; and generally ignore their business and their other expenses while serving the needs of the poor.
 
And there were some confused persons Tweeting “that was the reason they paid tax to a government that was supposed to do those things”. Silly people. Some Tweets would demand more government control of everything; and a few called for less.
 
The lady from the Stock exchange, their CEO, came and stood resolutely on the back of a lorry parked outside the Stock Exchange offices with the two persons representing the EFF and those two persons were more abusive than has characterized any public discourse recently: upscale if you like albeit in a bizarrely polite manner.
 
The abuse was not personal of course [unless you wanted it to be]. It was generally aimed at Evil Capitalists exploiting the unemployed by not hiring them [I understand that seems odd]. Mixed in with those persons were their [alleged] associates ‘white racists’, not to be confused with “nice Whites” … at one stage one of the EFF duo suddenly began hurling inverted Limpopo abuse at some unseen [off camera] entity that was presenting a less than accommodating demeanor, identified on sight as it were as a [so-called] “racist white”: to be stamped on were his latent abusive manner not immediately transposed into being “Nice” [whatever that meaans.].
 

There were moments like that when one felt transported back to the fifties hearing the same arguments being returned from an earlier journey, but in a new disguise. Totally weird
 
The lady from the Stock exchange was the heroine of the day… she was every bit my Korinth Starr. Handled an inherently scary situation… there were some 40,000 seriously unhappy dudes surrounding the lorry… who could with a wrong word explode into deeply morally righteous inchoate rage.
 
She handled the circumstance, for which one assumes she didn’t have much preparation, with equanimity, composure and a certainty of response that politely thanked the crowd for taking the trouble to walk the many kilometers they had in what is a heat wave that is entering its second month… a time when tempers flare; and the thoughts they had shared were to be the subject of much thought and consideration.
 
The JSE would respond she said.
THEY said. “You have thirty days… then we target each company with further action.
She said, “Thank you.” and then left.
 
We await the Stock Exchange’s response.
 
So for a moment the easy part has been done.
The takeover of the Stock Market is on “Hold” for thirty day and the students pay what they paid this year next year.
 
The State unilaterally [well under duress] ‘borrowed’ some 3-4 billion of “other people’s money” [the Fees payable] and cancelled it out. The accounting error stands however.
 
We are left with the question? Is the system sustainable?
 
How long is a piece of string?
 
Do you ever wonder if you took a wrong turn somewhere and suddenly found you were in a world you hadn’t planned on being in… maybe you even found the place you were in confusing suddenly as if it had changed without you noticing and you were now somewhere else even though everywhere was still physically the same.
 
Recently I spent some time waiting for service at a local Home Affairs facility and pondered a story on which I’m working at the moment… it centers on an historical pair of linked events looking out from the Rashomon konstrukt of my first story [The Buffalo Hunters : Part 1 Azanian Quartet.] that now following the visit repeats on different variations on a reality that may or may not be here, there, or anywhere other than in your own place of residence: your mind.
 
Knowing I would be spending hours in a Kolektions queue, and that I had some space to focus exclusively on some random needs of the story, I grabbed a book at random from a pile of unexplored second hand books I had picked up at a ‘ten bucks a book’ sale a few weeks back. Once in place in the ‘line’ i invited the Multiverse to join me in an exploratory journey into the heart of my tale using the random work as a talisman [or is that talisperson?].
 
Reading my own destiny [for the story] via a random walk through words, pages and ideas plucked like so many snowflakes that melted instantly into the web of consciousness that represents the theme. It was a wonderfully productive one hundred and forty odd minutes.
 

I opened the book at random and was soon engrossed in a tale of amazing complexity explained by a master of things: And so I came to understand where the story had to go. By the time a reached the front of the line 145 minutes later I had an outline for what has now become the opening lines of the story: which is not called Marabaraba, because it is unpronounceable even if that is what it is.
 
“So, [to refer to a previous blog] in other words, we have Jozi past tense, Jozi intermediate Future tense [the time that will be called NOW], but within a decade or so of the ‘Apocalypse’ described in the Jonker Memorandum, which i will also publish sometime soon as a digital book. And then another part will be set in Jozi in a ‘time yet to come’ …maybe a century or so from NOW.”
 

Marabaraba: With a nod to the Dancers.

Movement, he said, lies in
The role of the
Ritual
At
The moment
The ‘wave function’ coll
Apses
Whereupon we can visu
Alise a four [or
More]
dimen
Sion
Al
World that spl
Its in two [or
More]

Worlds in one
Of
Which
You will go
This way and in
O
Thers, some routes less
Taken.

While this vir
Tual circle
Createsasem
Blance of ten
Dency
Each one will be
Un
Aware
Of any other
For both [or
More]

Worlds are forever spl
It in to sep
Arate realities arrived at ran
Domly…
Perhaps.
!NiK[15]

Ultimately the really coolest thing about this fortnight of actively voiced rage and discontent was that NO ONE DIED
We are walking the path less travelled perhaps.
 
Best wishes to all readers.

Ready to Fly

Ready to Fly:

 

The poems in this collection [published 2009] date from the early 1970’s and extend through time to the year 2009. They rattle with the insecure optimism that characterises living in Afrika, a place from which so many are ‘Ready to Fly’ at a moment’s notice while remaining simultaneously transfixed in the glaring cascade of change.

 

No one could ever say that living in Africa, or in !NiK’s world, Azania, or Afrika was, or is, or will be easy; even when it looks as though it is. For those displaced though, in location and time, easy is not a word that springs to mind. And displacement is all the rage these days in Africa.

 

The initial displacement, for the poet at least, was migrating from his place of birth in a troubled northern region emerging from a period of internecine conflict, to the birth of trouble in the southern ‘lucky land’: or as it is more popularly known “The Beloved Country”. And then later he exiled himself, foolishly perhaps with love in his heart and a song in his hair, to more troubled lands, from which he later re-exiled back to a deeply troubled former lucky land. Later he finds he has reluctantly become an alien again in the beloved country: To cope he absorbed Azania.

 
The poet’s journey is a mirror for the upheaval following: the failure of the great [so-called] White-African experiment, in which he was simply a ‘buffettee” * [sic]. The journey follows the rainbow expectations in the newly liberated South Africa of the ‘90’s,as it morphed towards Mzansi, and the polarising lash-back as hybristic failures and choleric rage sought out its traditional scapegoats…. Unwanted or envied or wealthy people are history’s grey targets; and those who are unwanted, envied and poor are in an even more precarious position: living at the whim of the “mob”. So we live through the stirrings of change in the [so-called] ‘Noughties’ as we [an entire society] convulse again: the unintended outcome [one hopes] of an all-intentional series of acts.

 

For poets it is almost preordained that life shall be precarious and all the more precious as a result. The whole point of the middle class though, was to perpetuate sustainability.

 

This collection contains some pieces that may be contentious, some that may be ignored; and some that may be cherished. I can say no more than that.

 

There is no pattern or thematic structure. Each piece in the collection, excluding the piece that follows this, appears in alphabetic order according to the title given at the time it was originally written, except where it was changed and if it doesn’t seem to follow that order then those pieces that don’t are a subset of a prime piece that does. Enclosed within the brackets behind NiK’s signature, !NiK, at the end of each piece, are numbers that indicate the year when the piece was written, in some cases more or less.

 

Let the dice fall where they may.

 

Leofric House
Editor.
 

* Buffettee : one who is buffeted about.

 
 

Inkambabeyibuza:

 

You can either be a part
Of the power
Or apart
From the power.
Parcelling tradition
Or facing
Madness
Never
Believing that anyone
Could believe.
So Inkambabeyibuza –
By this scar then you shall remember me
And this.

 

From the notes of Joy.
The Jonker Memorandum.

.!NiK(05)

 

A superfluity of rights


 
The human being may be described as the
Lowest form of life on Earth
Since it is the most recent form to evolve.
It is therefore the one most likely to be capable
Of further mutation [one step two step…],
To become as much as it can be, through
Application of mind – Or
It can choose to discard the mind, as many do
In pursuit of the transient instant as
Was done in their turn by all
The other living entities on the planet.

 

What if we are here
To consume the planet?
And in some way through our growth plus
development
we achieve a critical mass that will spark off
the next phase in our
evolution…. Our revelation of transformation: the moment of our fabled
rapture.

 

Shall we ask then… come back later please?

 

Professor Oram Namgosti
10th Freedom Lecture: Witwatersrand University
Jozi:
2130 A.D. [118 A.A.]

From the podcast novel: The Jonker Memorandum… After Armageddon.
By: !NiK[08]

 

An entanglement of cords

 
I thought for a moment
of cords
and how they entwine
themselves
about each other:
languorous
longing for the entrails
of themselves
and the lascivious touch
of all that
lingered there.

.!NiK [1/6/06]

 

Whether it’s the vacuum cleaner cord or the lawn mower cord, the computer cords or a cord from here to there, or even the hosepipe, a cord of a different texture; leave it alone and the cords bond and entwine.

 

Appropriations
[21 January 2008]

“Welcome to Mbeki’s banana republic”
Thus reads the headline in the Sowetan this morning/

 

“We are rapidly joining the ranks of Nigeria and Zimbabwe” it
Continued.
 

It could as easily have read: “An inheritance ruined!”
They could have said… but didn’t because it is not
Fashionable to say such things or perhaps
The idea of an inheritance is not welcomed: certainly not
Remembered.
For who will choose to remember how
It was done: the smug sanctuary of victory
The arrogant takeover; the
Cursory words of contempt
For the loser.

 

As the newbies reached for the symbols

 

The milk is spilt the omelette awaits its end
For want of a light
The darkness returned
For want of a light for now.

 

Then the phrase was “who do you know?”
When the newly appointed toadies [who owed everything to their
Revolutionary masters]
Held schtumm when the outrageous was apparent.
And the emperor’s non-existent rags began to wither
On a malformed leg. All now say
We didn’t know
We didn’t know it was important;
That there would not be a place where we could appropriate the stock and take it over
For our own delicious ends.

 

How dare the people demand!
They cry out now.
We gave them everything they have
So they must now pay
With their aspirations and their leavened joy.

 

Spend wisely said the trustees
Who were impolitely ignored
There were guns and bombs and loot
To be adored.
The victors must have been right
It was believed; and the rules
Of the losers should be deplored.
 

Now all the best horses and all the new men
Could not put light where no facility
Began.
 

The citizens, who were enraged
Burned the trains
And are now caged
Into their neighbourhoods
Where there are no jobs
Work is scarce where imagination is
Restricted to the squares on which
We sit.
 

Thus the “mirror cracked
From side to side”: and we saw
Ourselves
Distorted

 

‘For want of a nail…’

!nik[08]
 

Ballad of a Homeless man

Not all refugees live on pavements: they are refugees nonetheless.

 
These are now the ways
we spend our days
gathering frills and garnishes.
 

Never forget: an age
of regret
at the parting when
we left.
 

Did we feel any sense of sorrow,
or was that only a moment,
to herald
a wave of emptiness:
cleansing away
that tense expectancy.
 

And now we sit apart
waiting for another journey
to begin.
A frantic time of quiet
reflection as we cali
brate
the sounds of laughter, and clinking cutlery;
listening to the feeling
with no need to join their noise
no need to empathise their brief amnesia.
 

How total is our
expectation of the actions that
we everlastingly assume
we need to make.
 

How deep the lull,
the quiet solicitude
of silence
expecting nothing of itself.
 

Thomas!
How your coffee spoons
mark out the borders
of my days, my weeks
and never ending months
of waiting, for the end
of waiting.
 

And in those wasting seconds
as we sip futility,
what was our course
and why was it
so imperative?
 

We pause in the midst of Armageddon
for spiced spare ribs
and the cleansing
fresh warmed towel.
 

Forgetting all our ignominies
in the meat lodged
firmly ‘tween our teeth.
Our own banality
far outweighs
sublime neglectful thoughts.

 

We dance a parody
of empty resolutions
and catastrophic
bold illusions.

 

The fresh scrubbed face
of youthful vigour
peers out at all
the sad decay
and senses challenges
amidst the dustbin heap
of our calamity:
and we rejoice
in their eternal anticipation.
 

Striding to the corridors
of endless crisis
a presageful intimation
of endless
bleak renewals.

 

Now, when we start again:
the bureaucratic minuet,
our jaded muscles know the stranglehold
of power corrupt
with seeking to maintain.

 

There are no players
only cut-out cardboard
shadows blown by the wind:
suspended souls
trampled in the solitary dust.

!NiK[‘80]

 

Athlone
 
And then
I thought about
your old nostalgic
pull
msasas and chameleons;
the slender limbs
of green Flamboyant
 

Flights of circling
wheeling hawks
again
black silhouettes against
the radiance
of evening’s stormy sky.
Exorcised
intact
from perception’s rheumy eye.
Content
‘till next time
we come by.

!NiK[‘80]

 

15/10/00

Brainscanning
 
Thinking of the brain
As a piece of territory
Some parts are worked
And are in varying stages of neglect
Others
Where you encounter new information
Are like virgin forest in which the
Undergrowth, rapidly regenerating
Bush,
Extends voraciously
And tangles the feet.
 

Or else it may so simply
Tread, lightly
Over stone and sand leaving
So faint an impression
That unless walked over
Again
Quickly
It
Will
Vanish
As if never there.
 
I think I take my students on
A staggering walk about
Through the wildernesses of their minds
(And mine)
And leave them only
Better resourced:
Perhaps.

Nicholas(2000)

 

Below the line: pure thought

 
“Below the line
Thought is negative” proclaims
A notice
On the wall
Above my head.
 
Presumably above the
Line thinking
Is thus positive.
 
What is this line?
How is it contrived?
By whom?
And how are the parameters
Defined?

!NiK[00]

 

Border crossings
 
Is there a difference between my lie
And theirs.
Can my lie be so small
That it trips me up.
 
While their big lie is
So vast
That like a wall it blocks
Us
From tripping.
 
The lie has so substantial a base
That no one can budge it.
It can be so huge it becomes truth
And our position at the margins
Merely conjecture.

!NiK (08)

 

Should you have reached this point know that the rest will be available once i figure out how to package the work in kollektivised digital form and put a hyperlink here instead of this banal statement.
Regards
Nicholas
 

Random Notes: a promo

.NiK
is an Anglo Afrikan poet. He was born in the United Kingdom of Anglo Welsh parentage in 1946, and migrated to South Africa with his parents in 1947. There he grew up in a gold mining town as a member of a despised, newly side-lined, Anglo-Celtic minority community, in a society controlled by fanatical, god-subsumed zealots who sought out every opportunity possible to beat the hell out of everyone who wasn’t in their club.

 

To give his life some kind of balance .NiK began giving poetry readings from Gilgamesh when he was four, continuing from then on. He grew up to the sound of TS Eliot, Dylan Thomas, James Joyce, Euripides, Shakespeare and almost every other poet of significance. By seven he was roaring out both Gilgamesh and Beowulf and at the age of fifty-four, in 2000, he performed the work of Friederich Nietzsche for that poet’s centenary, and as his own fiftieth anniversary performance as a performing and secular poet. He started to write down his own poetry in 1973.

 

He read Political Science and Economics at the University of the Witwatersrand during the turbulent end of the sixties and later trained as an economics schoolteacher: then ‘dropped out’: ‘Sixties’ style. He travelled in Europe, at first alone, then later with his wife, Diane, with whom he has also worked in various parts of Afrika, in a variety of occupations. Amongst these they spent some years working in the former Rhodesia where he was part owner of the Sundown Theatre Company, and where two of his three children were born. He returned to South Africa in the early eighties to generate family sustaining revenue via a variety of opportunities in the field of direct marketing, writing Marketing ‘stuff’, selling, debt collecting, more writing and, doing whatever else went with urban survival in an unwelcoming country being assiduously raped by International sanctions.

 

In the ‘Year of the Revolution’ in 1994, on a fateful 11th of September .NiK was ‘reborn’ in Afrika, when he survived an assault by armed murderers, killing at least one of his attackers, and wounding two others in a wild and frenzied close quarter unprovoked gunfight. He learned later that he was the 37th person to be shot by the same group over the preceding six weeks.
 
The injuries he sustained though, changed his life; returned him to the classroom, as a substitute teacher in a variety of State high schools, presenting various subjects; mostly 9th Grade economics and senior business and experimenting with methods of accelerating awareness and insight amongst young humans.

 

Eventually, in about 1998, he was declared permanently redundant in the State sector, as part of a process that favours the appointment, to State teaching posts, of citizens who were, in pre-revolution days, disadvantaged by discriminatory hiring policies. He now teaches part time in the private sector; and writes full time, when he is not busy doing something else entirely: living in the only time we know… now.

 

Random Notes is literally that: a kollektion of random pieces written over decades simply because they ‘happened’ when they did and were kollekted.

 
Editor.

 

 

Satori
 
‘Truth knocks upon the door
and you say
go away I am looking for
the truth.

zen koan
 
I was an
old fragile man
it seemed to them then.
They were young
fragile men when
the business began
and I felt a gathering
of angels
swirling through the dust
of our berserk
denouement:
to fetch us
to our destiny,
amongst the anthills
of urban renewal?
 
There were we
and
those three, who
threw
their lead
at me; striving
through such
imprecation
to burn
their way to
the centre
of my station;
convinced I
should fall
to their
sanctified
call.
 
Unannounced.
They came;
unheralded they left,
the way stoned men
cry
for mitigation.
 
The circle closed
the loop was done:
sanitised
in blood:
bonded
to links of lead.
 
In the dark soul of that instant,
the moment of
karma,
at the place
of convergence,
where
I slipped into
no
ness
I slew one of them
then.
 
And he was not even my enemy,
was never
the one in the swirling mass
of our
ancestors
who have howled for
the bullets
of our darkest desires:
 
I have made life
and I
have taken it
away.
And yet do
I know
I am not
some deity
awaiting frantic offerings
upon the essence
of our darker rhetoric.
 
It is simply this:
I have killed
a man
and now
know the
passage of life;
breathed first
upon my arm,
and last as well.
.NiK(1995)
 

 

Performance Poetry
 
Sitting in the park
one blustery day
I noticed the distant
figure
of a man
jumping
from the roof
of a building.
 

At first I thought it
was a
leaf
tossed
by the wind,
then heard his
voice crying out;
a primal song of joy:
rapturous
to seek eternity.
.!NiK(1993)

 

Election Manifesto.

It is a one step two step
slanging match again
I run you down
You do the same
One step, two step,
Throw a bad word
Never think of telling
Where the whole thing will go.
Never think, or never dare
mention how to do it.

 

No it’s
One step, two step,
Ignore the pointed question
Hover on the edges, until
They’ve all forgotten
Then promise something
No one thought to mention.
One step, two step,
Shifting from
The centre…………….
 

.!NiK(1980)

Publ…Sting Mag, Former Rhodesia 1980. (Now Zimbabwe)
Banned by the British Interim Administration…1980:
A faceless flunky fellow told me it was “bad form”.
Refers to the election that brought Robert ( Bob the Roz)
Mugabe to power in Zimbabwe.
Inspired by Lewis Carroll’s “ Lobster Quadrille.”

 

Some lines spoken by a long distance
shooter about:
the Man who never shot Mugabe

 
Doping the wind
Depends on the
Angles.
Like Pool you know
Or Billiards even.
 
You know when you play
Pool you have to think at once
Of angles;
Subjectively nominating
Places on the cushions:
Angles to strike
A glancing blow to fetch up at a given point
Over there at the right edge of some other target
Which heads off to the pocket.

 

Feel the wind.
Feel the wind inside your head.
Stand in the weather:
Stand in the weather.
Standintheweatherletthebullets
Flowaccordingtothewindripplinginsideyourhead.
Rippling through your last remaining years;
Swirling around the backstretch of your ears,
Rippling tangentially, across the back stretch of your ears.

 

Lining up the barrel
On a heap of reckless sandbags.
Lining up your energy,
Between your finger and the wind.
 

.NiK(00)

 

 

To Wilfred Owen,
On the death of
Fourteen civilians,
May,1976.

 
We saw your pity of war
Wilfred Owen
distilled in the mine
blasted corpse.
 

Where laughter had been
there was now only death;
the horror of love
on a quiet afternoon
torn apart for
no reason at all.
 
No dignity here;
no graceful repose:
an arm
or a leg
are all that return
a vague
personal form,
stamped by the arbitrary bomb.
 
This charred human meat;
remnants of life,
converted to something obscene.
A shadow of hate
links us with you,
and that implacable darkness,
born in the vile
savage
slaughtering
time.

 

Freedom, enriched
with a harvest of blood;
and maniac
slanderous metal,
tears the smile from the eyes
of a child who survives:
and grows
old
in a gurgle of tears….
 

.!NiK(1976)
Publ. Maze…1978.

 

 

Gingindluvu….
A vision at Easter
While rehearsing Marc Anthony

 

Across the veld
the horsemen rode,
they rode behind the light.
they rode from far
to rendezvous,
and end a ceaseless fight.
 

Never trust the horsemen
howled the man
with the bones,
never trust their solemn
hymns of praise.

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The horsemen come from far
he called
and lust to take the land.
Never trust the words
they call,
or scribble
with the hand.
 

All hours long
the vultures hovered;
swooping as the sunlight softened,
settling
as the daylight died.

 

Never meet the savage
warned the man
with the book,
Never trust the savage
warned the one
with the word.

 

But the feasting group
of horsemen sat bemused
beyond the fire;
they never heard the
intonation
heeded not
the warning:
never saw the shadow
in the flames…

 

And as they sat
and gorged themselves
the old temptations flew
the assegais were sharpened
and the battlelines formed true.

 

Then when the pounding
reached the top and
the whirling dancers flared:
lightning flashed
across the gap
the waiting vultures reared.

 

Never trust the savage
warned the one with the book
Never trust the horsemen
warned the ones with the bones,
never trust their solemn hymns
of praise.

 

Then the Man screamed out instructions
‘Bulala abathakathi!’
And then they looked,
and heard the warning:
called upon the word…

 
All hours long
the vultures hovered;
swooping as the sunlight softened,
settling as the daylight died….

 

.!NiK…(1978)

· Bulala abathakathi…kill the wizards. (IsiZulu)
· Gingingdlovu. HQ of Dingaan, Zulu king who succeeded Shaka. Vision: refers to the murder of a Settler party in 1838, an event that has bedevilled race relations in South Afrika/Msanzi right into the present day. Editor.

 

WHat you have read so far are the first group of poems at the beginning of the Kollektion: the rest of the 50 odd pieces will appear in the digital kollektion soon [ish]… Hope you found them accessible… editor.

Revelations 101

With apologies to Albert Camus:

Mother lied yesterday.
I didn’t know that she lied:
Remembered with a shock childhood
Injunctions enforced
With the buckle on the end
Of a leather strap tearing
The flesh on my four year old
Back
And more
Again and again as we grew
Crippling me so I could never so much as bend
The truth even
At the tip
Without a tell tale tearful twitch
Of the upper lip.

“If there’s one thing I can’t abide” she would hiss
out at me
“it’s a liar; a liar
a liar… see.

And now she lied and boasted that she lied: exulted
In a lifetime of evasive
Lies
And whereas one could often
Ask of one
Who lied
Whether anything they say
Could be true
In this case she had been
‘busted’ and was henceforth brash and brazen and
boldly through and through.

So mother lied yesterday
And I do not have to be uncertain about it
Albert
Because she admitted publically
that it was true.

!NiK[2011]

The Jonker Memorandum

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What is the Jonker Memorandum?   The Jonker, as I’ll call it is first and foremost a cell phone story. It didn’t start out intending to be one. It took so long to write that the world changed considerably and … Continue reading